I found this letter among very old papers. I wrote it to a friend who is there no more, and I really really wish she’d read it before we lost touch!!!! For one reason or another, she never did … and I now paste it here for all of you: if you ever want to send something to your dear friends, do it TODAY…. never wait till tomorrow.

 

So, today I dedicate it to all my dear friends. I am still surprised that for each of them there’s a part which applies despite the difference in their characters and lives. But to all of them my love and deep gratitude they’re in my life.

 

(The original was written to a female: I keept the original in its form as much as possible with translation)

 

“Dear….

 

It’s been a long time since we talked, and I really really miss you! You can say that we still meet, but somehow I’m still missing our talks and chats and nights-over and all other things we did together. Not sure why things are turning out this way, but I wanted to tell you that no matter what happens, you’re in my heart.

 

About that matter which we argued last time, I’m sorry! I have no idea why or how I could act so silly! I guess I was expecting you to understand … or maybe hoping you’d give in for me. Looking at it now that it’s over, it was silly of me NOT to understand while asking you to do. But it was always like that between us: when I’m silly you can handle; when you’re silly I handle. I honestly hope we can go back to that. Not one of us can survive it without the other’s support.

 

Many words I wished to tell you which I found un-befitting. Many times I should have said how much I really love you exactly as you are, and that you really mean a lot to me. Many times I was thanking God you are my friend and that our courses met during my lifetime. But I never told you any of that. I took you for granted; the same way I took many other things in my life. However, I am now collecting my courage to tell that to you. You are wonderful.

 

Another thing I wanted to tell you is that you’re a beautiful creative person. I know we talk a lot about your work and all the great things you’re doing and I know you get this from 1000 other people, but every time I hear of your new piece coming, I am so touched and rush to find out what’s new and how to get hold of it. I was afraid to tell you this you’d think I’m exaggerating…. you hate me when I say this about others in front of you and you find it too tacky. But I still must tell you how I admire what you do and how I believe you’re completely on the right path! If I found a way to help you, I promise I will. You’re so gifted and so rich with what you do that many times I envy you! Not only are you not conscious of your talent, you almost shy away when others point it out. Maybe because you’re not a standard person: you’ve always been different and will always be, and for that I admire you.

 

Last word for you is that I pray you to leave behind that stupid business you got yourself involved in! You keep giving us all excuses: family pressure, society requires it, money matters and other bla bla bla. This is your life: you’re free to do whatever you like of course and no one can or should allow themselves the right to tell you what to do or even advise you - for they are NOT in your shoes. But when I see you frustrated, unhappy, worried, angry, guilty and many other things that came with it, I wish I were able to get rid of it all myself! Don’t ever think that I don’t notice when you’re in pain. You could hide it from yourself even, but you won’t be able to hide it from me. It’s enough to see your hair losing its color or your chin contracted to know you’re not well. It’s not easy at all to see someone you love suffer…. even when I can’t help … I still ache!

 

Please remember always that no matter what happens, you have one number you can always call and I will always answer and be there … any time day or night … from wherever I am in the world I’ll find a way to you. The future cannot be predicted, but we only know that NOW you are my dear friend and I love and care for you a lot.

 

Be happy as always.

 

Yours with love,

 

Mary

 

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